Jan 3, 2013

An unsettled life

Image: Nicolas Raymond/Stockvault
I'm realizing more each day that my days are no longer as predictable as I'd enjoyed previously.  You know the familiarity and sense of comfort that comes from having a general routine?  Well that's gone away now for me, at least for a little while. 

It's funny, though, how you start to get that sense of something being "meant to be."  For the past nearly 6 months or so I had been growing increasingly dissatisfied with my job.  Although I didn't work more than four shifts a month I'd started feeling a sense of dread when it came time to do so.  Then more recently I started to get headaches--pounding, throbbing ones--whenever I knew that I was on schedule to work.

My husband, great guy that he is, gave me the option of leaving my job and staying home with the kids for a while.  Although I was ecstatic about the possibility, I've almost always worked from the time I was 14, and despite how I felt about my job I was terrified at the thought of leaving.  I prayed and prayed some more over this, and we decided that I would leave my job either January or February 2013, and I could then decide, after some time off, what exactly I wanted to do.

The momentum definitely shifted after I finally got the long awaited invitation to start the advanced placement RN program I've waited so long to start.  I would definitely be leaving my job now so as to focus fully on my education.  With a sense of relief I typed my resignation letter this week.  I decided to speak with my supervisor directly, just out of respect for the nearly 7 years that I've worked for the company, to let her know that I would only be there for two weeks more.

The conversation was so anti-climactic.  I'd never been a bad employee, heck I'm on their website in a video for nurse recruitment!  There were no thank-yous offered for years of service or commitment.  Only a quick "Good luck and keep us posted on your progress." With that it was over.  

And that's when that feeling of my new path being meant to be swept over me.  The choice had been made for me, and I completely understand that it's time now for me to go in the direction of my dreams. 

13 comments:

  1. I'm glad that you know what you were meant to do. I wish you all the luck in the world.

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    1. It took a while to get there but I'm happy to have the opportunity to now focus on my goals. Thanks for the well-wishes!

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  2. I guess your prayers were answered, and in a roundabout way, the decision was made for you! I'm sure you're excited!

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  3. Sorry the goodbye at work was so pitiful! I'm glad you are taking a new journey in life and I wish you all the luck in the world with your pursuit! :-)
    Happy new year!
    Jamie
    http://chatterblossom.blogspot.com/

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    1. Oh that's ok--to add injury to insult, I got a call asking me how many shifts I can work between now and my last day :-/. What can I say? Just glad to be going on starting a new endeavor. Thanks for all the good wishes Jamie!

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  4. Wow Shawn ~ I can't believe that was it! That's crazy!
    You are going to have an amazing new journey ahead of you ... one because you are so excited about it and two ... because of your passion we can feel when speaking about it!

    So much luck to you friend!
    xoxo
    Lanaya
    www.raising-reagan.com

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    1. Yeah, same thing I said. It was like breaking up with someone who basically said "Ok, well see ya around and have a nice life!" I truly hope for an amazing journey. I am so humbled by your kind and sweet words Lanaya! I'm reminded of why I blog and the connections I've made. {{Hugs}}to you my friend!

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  5. I love being at home with my 1yo but I also enjoy getting out to work a few times every week.
    I am your newest follower,
    Jay
    http://youngmumsguidetosurvival.blogspot.com.au/

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    1. Hi Jay! Welcome and looking forward to having you around here :).

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  6. Congratulations! This is wonderful news for you! Obviously your former employer didn't realize how valuable you are, so you are better off without them! Now you can focus on what you love doing, and life couldn't be any sweeter! SO happy for you!

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    1. Thank you ever so much! I could not be more thrilled. I agree completely that it was time to part ways with my former employer and now that I know my schedule for school, there is no way I could fulfill my required hours with them anyway. As I wrote, some things are truly meant to be--and they come when it's time. Thanks again for your encouraging words.:D

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